I have always believed I was an anxious, angry person

 

Now I realise that I lived in situations that I didn’t understand were overstimulating (because I was told they weren’t).

The ‘anxiety’ is actually nervous system reacting to what it sees as lack of safety due to knowing it’s actually overstimulating and dysregulating, and the anger is the adrenaline i use to overcome the anxiety and being angry gets shit done.

And then there’s the shame of being a perpetually anxious angery person that I didn’t want to be.

Now I understand this, and have spent the summer testing this theory after the attunement circle, I’m not actually that person at all.